Walking into work today I saw a couple walking in front of me. All of a sudden she stopped and turned to her man and I could see she was pregnant, not too far along, just a little baby bump. I continued to watch, mesmerized by the look of surprise on her face. While keeping one hand on her belly and she reached for his hand and placed it on the same spot she had her hand. Now watching him, he looked at her belly and then to her face, you could see the question form in his mind. When, with tears coming from her eyes, she nodded, the look of astonishment dawning on is face as he realized that he just felt his baby move for the first time. This was a priceless moment in time for them. The Quickening of Life. It was so beautiful to witness and so painful to me at the same time. As I continued to walk, I said a blessing to their well-being as I passed them by.
This is not the first time I have experienced this moment with others, all my sisters have children, and my extended family is most prolific, but I have never experienced it myself. That is where the pain comes in. I have done readings and looked into my Crystal Ball Network and I have never seen me quickening with child. Spending time with the family can be hard. Don't get me wrong, I love my nieces and nephews, Bill and I have a great relationship with them (we spoil them rotten to be honest), but I want my own.
Bill and I have tried and tried and in the end it is the same. Month after month and year after year, it has been the same. Not that I haven't liked the practice, Bill does this one thing with his... but I digress, where was I, Oh yeah, the practice *grins*.
In some ways pain is good. It tells us that it maybe it is time to do something about it. Bill and I need to talk and we need to make an appointment it see what is the matter.
Monday, November 22, 2010
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
My Bill
As some of you may be aware, November 3rd is mine and Bill's Anniversary. The number one questions that I get asked is "how did you and Bill meet?" And the answer is: we never really did. LOL I know that sounds funny, so let me explain.
Bill's dad is one of the Senator's from Louisiana, and his district includes New Orleans. That being said, guess where they came to every summer to do the family photo ops and stuff... you guessed it New Orleans. Every year they would be a fixture in the city, and the newspaper headlines would read " Sen. Laurens' family having breakfast at Cafe Du Monde's" Or "Laurens' Family takes a Haunted Tour" blah, blah, blah...you get the idea. So you kind of got used to seeing them around.
When we were teenagers, Bill's family stopped in Sunshine's parent's place "Runningwolf's" for lunch. Yes it's a bar, but they have great food... anyway I was there with Sunny helping to serve and that is where I first saw Bill. He was dressed in a blue suit and tie, he looked like a yacht club kid, *chuckles* which he was. He sat there all stiff like, afraid to get wrinkled, let alone dirty eating his Crawfish Etouffee, and trying to look like he liked it.
One of Sunny's brothers, I don't remember which one Rain or Storm, started to make fun of Bill. When Bill was finished eating, he stood up and looked the brothers in the eye and jerked his head pointing to the back. Of course the boys followed, and truth be told so did Sunny and I. I watched, with tongue hanging out as Bill started to take his suit jacket, tie and shirt off. I have seen boys bodies before, but I have never been affected by them before, this was a first for me. As I was staring at Bill and his naked chest, he looked at me and winked. I looked in his eyes and I knew then that even though he may look like a straightlaced poster boy for a boarding school education, he had a restrained wild side that he let only a few see. There was a connection between us, without touching, it could be felt. I knew then that he was the love of my life. He would always be there for me and I for him. I fell in love.
He proceeded to beat the crap out of both the boys. Sunny and I cheered, (they were always picking on us) and Bill grabbed his clothes and walked back into the bar and into the bathroom to clean up. The next I saw him he was sitting with his family as if nothing had happened. They had and still have, no clue that Bill has this side to him.
After that, he would come to New Orleans and Runningwolf's every chance he could get. He changed his plans on college to accomodate me and my plans to go to Tulane. We spent every minute we could together and made plans to get married. When we married, we said we would do our own vows, which we repeat every year to each other. They are:
Bill: I love you Babe. You are the Moon to my Sun, the Night to my Day, the Ying to my Yang. You are the very Best of Me.
Selena: I love you too, Honey. You are the Sun to my Moon, the Day to my Night and the Yang to my Ying. You are the very Best of Me.
So you see, we were never really introduced to each other, but we knew who each other was the minute we looked into the other's eyes
Bill's dad is one of the Senator's from Louisiana, and his district includes New Orleans. That being said, guess where they came to every summer to do the family photo ops and stuff... you guessed it New Orleans. Every year they would be a fixture in the city, and the newspaper headlines would read " Sen. Laurens' family having breakfast at Cafe Du Monde's" Or "Laurens' Family takes a Haunted Tour" blah, blah, blah...you get the idea. So you kind of got used to seeing them around.
When we were teenagers, Bill's family stopped in Sunshine's parent's place "Runningwolf's" for lunch. Yes it's a bar, but they have great food... anyway I was there with Sunny helping to serve and that is where I first saw Bill. He was dressed in a blue suit and tie, he looked like a yacht club kid, *chuckles* which he was. He sat there all stiff like, afraid to get wrinkled, let alone dirty eating his Crawfish Etouffee, and trying to look like he liked it.
One of Sunny's brothers, I don't remember which one Rain or Storm, started to make fun of Bill. When Bill was finished eating, he stood up and looked the brothers in the eye and jerked his head pointing to the back. Of course the boys followed, and truth be told so did Sunny and I. I watched, with tongue hanging out as Bill started to take his suit jacket, tie and shirt off. I have seen boys bodies before, but I have never been affected by them before, this was a first for me. As I was staring at Bill and his naked chest, he looked at me and winked. I looked in his eyes and I knew then that even though he may look like a straightlaced poster boy for a boarding school education, he had a restrained wild side that he let only a few see. There was a connection between us, without touching, it could be felt. I knew then that he was the love of my life. He would always be there for me and I for him. I fell in love.
He proceeded to beat the crap out of both the boys. Sunny and I cheered, (they were always picking on us) and Bill grabbed his clothes and walked back into the bar and into the bathroom to clean up. The next I saw him he was sitting with his family as if nothing had happened. They had and still have, no clue that Bill has this side to him.
After that, he would come to New Orleans and Runningwolf's every chance he could get. He changed his plans on college to accomodate me and my plans to go to Tulane. We spent every minute we could together and made plans to get married. When we married, we said we would do our own vows, which we repeat every year to each other. They are:
Bill: I love you Babe. You are the Moon to my Sun, the Night to my Day, the Ying to my Yang. You are the very Best of Me.
Selena: I love you too, Honey. You are the Sun to my Moon, the Day to my Night and the Yang to my Ying. You are the very Best of Me.
So you see, we were never really introduced to each other, but we knew who each other was the minute we looked into the other's eyes
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